04:43 pm: NEED Abri-Form X-Plus
Hey guys, I've been pretty busy so haven't updated in a while...but when I get a chance I've got some great stories to tell.
Anyways, does anyone know of a store or Medical Supply store in NEW ENGLAND that sells Abri-Form X-Plus diapers? Right now, having them shipped to me is not an option. That, and I love buying diapers in person, its so kinky and fun.
Just got a Mr. Softee....not my favorite dildo. I'll stick to my pink jelly "assrammer" right now....
Girlfriend still hasn't given me head, but I haven't been asking her....maybe I should start whining again.
04:09 pm: pissed off....
So, I'll be frank. My girlfriend does not give head. Not even once in the months we have been going out. Its usually not a big deal, because I understand that some people just don't like to do it. I can see how people wouldn't want to do it. But sometimes it just bugs me, that she says she would anything for me, anything at all, but she won't do that. I know it sounds kind of selfish, but I really wish she would. If she really loved me, she would do it once. JUST ONCE. Just even putting her mouth there for 1 second would mean so much to me. Maybe its just me, but if she just did it once it would mean complete acceptance, which is what I want. But she won't do it. Not once. And the fact that really hurts me is that she has done it before, she did it for a guy along time ago. Now granted, she only did it for a little while, and ended up stopping before the guy went. It was her first time doing it, and she just thought it was so disgusting and uncomfortable that she stopped halfway through. But the fact that she at least put her mouth on someother guy's dick, but she won't even get close to mine just kills me. Its honestly not even about sex, its about her backing up her claim of absolutely loving me and willing to do anything for me. Did I mention the fact that I've gone down on her a few times, and have never gotten the favor returned? Arrg....it just really hurts a guy's feelings, his self esteem, his whole mindset to be rejected like that.....
I would do anything at all for this girl...just wish she would do the same.
02:07 pm: stupid tapes
Ugh I hate when diaper tapes come loose. Usually I don't have this problem, but I was wearing a pretty soaked Attends; it was pretty heavy and saggy. So I was picking up some Tenas from a medical supply store in Cambridge, and all of a sudden I heard pop and then another pop, and my diaper was pretty much falling off me. It was pretty embarassing, I had to walk funny and keep one hand in my pocket trying to keep it all together. I found a bathroom and kinda of fixed it, but it was a real pain. I wish diaper manufacturers could just make them alot stickier....
Another diaper peeve: when you go poopies and u sit down, sometimes the poopies eek out a little bit around your leg gatherer band things.
10:44 pm: Tena Slip Maxi
Does anyone know a good online retailer that carried the European version of Tena diapers? I love the Tena Supers from America, but I'm not a big fan of it being green. I've seen many pictures of European Tenas, and I believe their version of the Tena Super is called the Tena Slip Maxi, its a white diaper with a purple stripe running down the middle. To me, they just look alot better than the green american ones. So if theres a good online store that ships to US, please let me know
I'm not gay, never have been, don't think I ever will be. I've had one gay experience in my life, a drunken night with my college roomate, but besides that I'm straight as an arrow and have an incredible girlfriend right now. That one gay time, my roomate spilled beer all over his bed, so he ended up sleeping in my bed. We were head to toe, nothing weird. But in the morning, I woke up for some reason, but I did not know why. I was still drunk and felt awful, and I quickly fell back asleep. I woke up again a short time later, only to feel my roomates hand on my dick, jerking me slowly. I didn't know what to do or say. I mean, I had never had any sort of gay experience before. I was pretty much in shock. But all I did was lie there, quietly, letting him pleasure me. He stopped soon, and I went back to sleep, still confused and shocked. Again, I was awakened, but this time my roomate was giving me head. Again, I said nothing and just lied there, letting him suck my dick. I was so scared, I didn't know what to do. I mean, I was loving it. It felt great. But I'm not gay so it was very very weird. Then...for some reason, I reached over and started jerking him off. He pushed his hips closer to my face, and I knew what he wanted me to do. And I did it. I took his dick into my mouth, and fondled his balls. And I was ok with it. And I couldn't believe I was ok with it. This continued for a while, until I shot my load in his mouth, and he shot his in mine. Neither of us said a word about what happened. At all. Then, later that night, we had been drinking again and I had just shut the light out to go to bed. About 5 minutes after I jumped in bed, my roomate jumped in my bed naked. He was completely wasted. He started kissing me, but I didn't like it. It just wasn't right, I wasn't into it. I'm not gay. But he kept kissing me and jerking me, and finally went down on me. Then he asked me to fuck him. It was pretty hard to do, as we were both drunk, but I finally got inside him, and fucked him. I ejaculated inside him. He continued to kiss me, and turned me over and lubed me up. He entered me, and I enjoyed it. He ended up coming inside me. After he was done, I told him I didn't want to do that ever again, I enjoyed the sexual release bt it just wasn't right or comfortable for me, because I was not gay at all. It just wasn't the same with a guy. That was the last time I ever did anything with a guy. We never talked about it after that night either.
The whole point of that story is that while I am not gay, I picked up an intense desire for anal intercourse. My dream is to share diapers with my girlfriend, and let her know I wear diapers, but the next best thing I could think of would be having her strapon a dildo and do me. Trust me, you dont have to be gay to enjoy anal stimulation. It doesn't make you gay if you like anal. At all. I wish guys would get over that stigma and accept anal pleasure for what it is - pure, simple pleasure. Why should gay men have the joy, but straight men not? Its stupid. I recently bought a vibrating dildo/ butt plug, and let me tell you, I've never had better orgasms. I ram that baby in and out, and when I orgasm I almost collapse, no joke. Its such a shame that more people haven't experienced the joy of anal intercourse.
08:27 am: so tired...gotta go to work
Ugh, I got NO sleep last night. And I need to go to work. My Moli Super is dry as a bone, I'm pretty suprised. Usually I soak my diaper pretty well. I used to have to conciously pee myself, and it was kinda difficult, but now when I wear diapers to bed, I don't think about it and wake up all nice and perfectly wet. And the bestt part is I don't wet the bed when I'm not wearing a diaper.
Gonna head to a medical supply store in Cambridge tonight and pick up some Tena Supers.
01:15 pm: I love buying diapers
Most people would at least be slightly embarassed buying adult diapers. They are not "normal" in today's society. Its similar to how many people don't like buying condoms or any personal items, its just the way we are. But I love buying diapers. I proudly go to the diaper aisle and grab my diapers and my wipes and some baby powder if I need it. I don't try to hide it. Granted, I only shop in areas where Im pretty positive I won't see anyone I know, but still... Two weeks ago I was at a little independent pharmacy (which I've come to love, becuase they usually carry Attends and Molicare...damn you CVS / Walgreens) and the woman at the counter asked me something I had never been asked before. In all my times buying diapers, I had never been asked if they were for me. This woman asked me if they were for me. I had always wondered how I would respond, usually thinking of something like "they're for my grandmother" or something. But instead, I smiled and said Yup!. I SAID YUP! I actually told someone face to face that yes, these diapers were for me, and no, I'm not afraid to say so. It was such a great moment, such a relief that I was finally able to tell someone, albeit a complete stranger. And the best part is this woman was an angel. She had to be in her late 50s, maybe even early 60s. She smiled, continued to ring up my things, and asked if I had the right size, because they run by hip size instead of waste. I told her that I was all set, as I've bought them many times before. Then this very gentle, kind woman told me that I was a brave guy, and told me that she wears attends to bed occasionally because of a kidney problem. I couldn't believe I was having a conversation about diapers with someone, it was great. She proceeded to talk about ways to hide odor, and to wear loose clothing to hide it, when another customer showed up behind me and cut out conversation short. As I was thanking her and leaving, she told me to wait a second. After finishing with the other customer, she came out from behind the counter and we talked some more. She asked me if I was wearing a diaper right then and there, and I smiled and nodded, and told her I was pretty wet so I better get home and get into a new one. She laughed...and leaned in to whisper to me. And its a moment I will never forget. Ever. She offered to take me in the back room and change me. My heart fluttered, I was so excited. But so was my dick. I got rock hard. I wanted to have her change me so badly. SOOOO badly. But I just couldn't. I couldn't have her change me with a massive erection, she was just too sweet and nice. It tore me apart, and took ever ounce of my energy, but I politely declined. I told her I really appreciated the offer, and any other day would take her up on it, but I had to get home quickly. I almost cried when I left the store. My dream, my fantasy....so close, but I chickened out. The only good news is she said she'd do it next time if I wanted...I should really go back soon.
Heres a question, do those Diaper Genie things work with adult diapers? I've been looking for a good way to dispose of my diapers, and I've seen them around. In a few weeks I'll be all alone (no roomates!!!!) and I could get away with having a diaper genie in the bathroom or something.
10:15 am: Gooooood morning!
I just woke up. Normally I wouldn't be very chipper, I'm not a morning person at all. But theres someting exciting about waking up in a diaper. Before I went to bed I put a fresh Attends on, and now its perfectly soaked. It feels so awesome... it's so hard to describe if your not an Ab/Dl. I REALLY just want to leave this thing on all day and go out in public and just let everyone know who I really am...but its not gonna happen, at least not today. I have a good amount of time before I need to be anywhere, and I'm all alone (for once) so I'm thinking I'm gonna poop a little, take some pictures, and get myself cleaned up and ( hate to say it) out of diapers.
On a side note, when I first started wearing diapers, I wore Depends overnight cuz its all I could find. Then I went on a desperate search all over MA and found a few places with Attends. That switch from Depend to Attends was amazing, they are just sooooo much better. I finally found some Moli Supers, and I LOVE those too, but Attends still has a place in my heart...no diaper, not even Abri X-Plus will ever take that away.
PS. Anyone in New England know a store that sells Abri-Form X-Plus? Better yet...are there any AB/DL centric stores? I stumbeld across a website for a store in Georgia oneime, but I've since lost the site and forget the name...and Georgia is too far to go. But that would be heaven, walking into a store with all the different diapers and plastic pants and supplies an AB/DL could want. I'm gettin a little stiff thinkin about it!
10:53 pm: Attends 10, soaked.
First journal entry, but it needs to be quick. I'm sitting here in a SOAKED Attends 10 with wasteband. I love Attends, but I SERIOUSLY wish I could find a store in MA that sells Abri-Form X-Plus. They are so amazing. Anyways, I'm contemplating pooping my diaper...I love the feeling at first, but the cleanup and smell are a pain. Ok, thats it for now, hopefully more (lots more) and a few pictures later on.